I've Been Here Before.

19 mins since the 1st tic...

... lost, looking around, seeking for someone... and what now?! What is going to happen? A dead echo.

What is after this second? Pause. I hear nothing... I don't get it and don't understand what is happening. I wait for a sign. I want the answer I've been promised I'll get.

But wait, I've been here before!

Or... that's the answer?!... Nimic cu nimic, "pentru ca merit"...

...and tac never came.

NU uita cuvintele.

Lipseste scriptul. Adica.. si cortina?! Sa cada, la naiba! Nu-i clar ca am uitat cuvintele?!
Si iata scena cand ne invinuim parintii pentru ceea ce suntem si plaiul natal - pentru ceea ce nu vom fi nicicand.

Eu nu mai cred in potential. Si nici in vointa. M-am decis. Cred ca fiecare joaca un rol pe care el insusi si-l alege si ceea ce conteaza e abilitatea de a NU uita cuvintele!!! Si daca tie ti-e bine asa - de ce sa fie altfel?

Dar eu nu mai inteleg nimic - nu trebuia sa fie un script pana la urma?...

Ah! si naivitatea - se da degeaba la taraba mea. Daca ochelarii de soare ar putea vorbi si lifturile ar avea urechi - lumea ar fi mai frumoasa si povestile de dragoste mai adevarate. Si din asta cum mai ies acum?


The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands
Saying, "How do you do?"
They're really saying, I...I love you
I hear babies cry and I watch them grow,
They'll learn much more
Than we'll know
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world (w)oohoorld

New.

I need to clean my house. I need to throw away the garbage, to bring flowers on my table and to brush away the dust from my old library.

Tonight the world begins again.

Heart Disorders

Whenever my heart twinges me I get back to my mom's lap. I stare at the damn phone and listen Steven Johnson on the Web as a city. So what? Lebanese newspaper writes that Moldovan chix are too hot to stay at home and seee? That's why I'm nowhere.

Because I don't have the guts. Do they sell Guts in a cold store? Umm.. even if they would - US money reached a wrong bank account, therefore not mine.

That's why there are "7th of November" days - to go home and get back to mom's lap .... and this time it won't be just a happy song away.

Ты - не ждешь, но я - вернусь

It has to be like this, thus NO. But look at my people - between two eras they can make it. Why cant I make it? Svetlana Toma is drop dead beautiful and Sofia Rotaru is damn talented.

PS. Only if I could sign an MoU with God.

What Made My Day

Lebanon is preparing the ground for a new war with Israel - a food war - and it is all about hummus

Source: Sky News

PS. This article made my day. New obsession from Amr Diab - Allah La Yehremni Menak.
When enough is enough?!

News Roundup

* In the first day of Eid I remembered how much I enjoy sea side and yes, Bahrain is surrounded by sea. Bahrain Ford. I've seen it with my own eyes, I swear. After 3 months?! Shame on me?! Wait, no, blame the weather.. Wait, wait.. blame the car. Darn. Guilty of charge.

* I cant live in luxurious places. As much as I love the view on the top of a 12 floors building, in Amwaj, I know I can't live in a place where you have all gym facilities, swimming pool, sauna, jacuzzi and all of that sort. I feel guilty for having all that, knowing that 35000 children die every day because of poverty.

* Yey for AIESEC! The most "napolitane la 2 dimineata cu Nadia" organisation ever. I haven't loose my drive and my paternal instinct - my motivation is SO much there! En garde, Leadership Team! Let's build the Kingdom! (pour les connaisseurs).

* I still can tolerate and leave aside my pride to make things work. A door to door conversation which made me cry, smile and felt just awesome - it's called communication and expectations setting for roomies.

* I did not do any sport since I came back from Brazil. Good to me. Was I talking about a financial crisis few posts ago? I'm still into one, but it's all about Bahrain, cool people and a lazy Lumi. Baskin Robbins on a cauch?! No, I do not loose weight when I'm stressed. Just hair.

* The roof became my new cherry tree. I felt ashamed of feeling alone when it wasn't the case at all, but I know that September is the month. ... Sandra knows. Doing an MC term abroad?! or one year long international internship?! You know it too.

* I can't bluff my way out. It's just too awesome. But somehow, it works like this - you give with one hand and take with the other one. A perfect equilibrium. My face still doesn't go red and I don't stammer - because I do not lie. Forbidding me to wear skirts and shorts does not make me more appreciated and respected. Lumi's expiration date: 4th of November.

* Praying seems like something I don't know to do anymore, sort of a one sided conversation in which I give up after one minute. But why?! I badly have to go to church.

Windy times, mingled hair, flowers on my dress and no make up!